So, I've been told that the older you get and the more kids you have...the more relaxed and easy going you become! This is so NOT true for me!
I worry SO much about EVERYTHING! So much in fact, that it will affect my decisions on whether or not to do certain things. Fun things that my kids should get to experience but aren't able to cause their mom is a paranoid freak!
I am scared to death of something happening to my husband or kids. If it's bad weather, I make Preston text me to let me know that he got to work safe. I worry every time he takes the kids on the 4-wheeler and not just because of what happened with Kayston. I was worried before that but that just put more worry on top of my worry! I hate driving far places in fear of getting in a car accident and when we are on the freeway, you better believe I'm a freak to drive with. I NEVER sleep in the car cause I think that if I stay awake, I can prevent a wreck from happening!
My brother-in-law and his wife were recently sealed in the Idaho Falls Temple. Well, it was only a couple of weeks after having Kenley so there was no way I could have gone. But, I told Preston not to go either because I am so scared of him getting in an accident and dying! I tried to blame it on just having a baby and a couple of other things but the main reason is because I just can't imagine anything happening to him.
Some of you know that he and kayston are building a "cabin" up Spanish Fork canyon. Well, it's further than that, about 2 hours away. Every time he plans a day to go up there, I have anxiety about it until they are home safe and sound! I can't help but picture them rolling off a cliff and no one can find them cause it is in such a remote area.
I am freaked out about natural disasters (earth quakes in particular) and I am seriously ready to move from Utah! I worry about fires, floods, terrorist attacks, someone breaking in our house, my kids being kidnapped, my parents dying, someone in my family getting sick, my kids or hubby dying or getting badly hurt and those are just the bigger things.
I don't let my kids go out and play unless I am out there with them. It boggles me when kids that are Kayston's age are just roaming the neighborhood and there parents are nowhere to be seen! I have to know where my kids are at all times! I don't think is weird at all! I think every parent should know where their kid is! And "playing outside" isn't the best answer!
Anyway, am I the only one that feels like this? Does anybody else worry as much as I do? I hate always feeling so worried and I hate that I let it affect the things we do. Am I CrAzY??
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yay, it's been awhile since a good rant:) lol. I worry like that a lot too, maybe not quite as much, but especially after having my miscarriages I feel like I lost that "it could never happen to me" feeling a lot of people have. Now sometimes it's hard to decide if it's just my silly overly sensitive emotions or a real concern. I agree about watching your kids, I think people get WAY to comfortable with this thought of living in happy valley, stuff happens and it's not just to bad people or everyone else. That said I think you have to have a balance and try to realize what's rational and what's not and what you can control and what you cannot. I don't think it's a good thing to live in constant fear. I think you just need to learn that you can handle whatever your given, and when you can't Heavenly Father will be there to give you the strength. Even if something really awful happened, you are awesome and would get through it! This is such a short time in our life..we are eternal.
I am the same way! I worry about almost everything. Everytime Derek has to fly I worry about him. I just say a little prayer and that always makes me feel better. YOU BETTER NOT MOVE FROM UTAH!!!
I am the same way too!! I never let my kids play outside unless I am there with them, and I think it's crazy and a little scary that parents let little kids roam around on their own. I think it's our job to know where our kids are at all times when they are this little. Plus, that's part of parenting...and it's not easy! I worry too...I don't know what I would do without my family and if anything ever happened....AHHH!! I think like that all the time, but honeslty it didn't start for me until Matt was diagnosed with his brain condition. Now anytime he has anything...even just a splinter I freak out. LOL You're not crazy, your a mom! I think we just get this way because we care and we feel like it's our job to keep our loved ones safe. I used to be a risk taker and loved adventurous things...and now I am THE BIGGEST scaredy cat ever! I get nervous about sledding...who does that? So, you are not alone! It's hard isn't it! After reading this back, I seem totally crazy!!! Oh well, maybe we both are... : )
So........you are a little up tight with worrying about what will happen to your family. You are going to miss out on many experiences that you will cherish if you keep everyone on lockdown. I know it's hard, but you need to understand that we can't control what is supposed to happen. I don't think anything will, but you have to try to have faith that we are going to be ok and regardless, you are stuck with us for eternity. I know it's because you love us, but we want to get dirty sometimes and want you to be with us. So come along to the hot cabin trips, and let the kids get a little nuts too. I am just as much to blame by trying to keep them safe and CLEAN, but we will work together to make this easier. All I need is a couple hundred thousand to build a cabin closer and we will be set on that aspect. I love you and am excited to stretch us from our comfort zone together. LOVE YOUR HUBBY!
Hey, just remember any time your kids want to get dirty, go barefoot, hang updown side on the swingset, they can ALWAYS come to Gramma's.
And yeah, I will go to the cabin and get dirty anytime!
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